MY LOVE

This page is about my love to me.
It is about the love of my soul for me.
It is about my relationship with her.
My discovery with her, the lovely things she is showing me, the ideas and the wisdom she is sharing with me.

The soul love is something that humans usually won't believe is exist. They will run away from it like fire, it won't give them what they think they deserve, and what they think they deserve is very limited, very very small, tiny portion of love.
For many humans, love means abuse, means conditions and fear.

This page will be especially about self love, self acknowledgment, self honoring and respect and about conscious choices.

It is a matter of choosing and a matter of really saying YES, allowing my soul's love, compassion, magic, softness, playfulness to be a part of my life, each breath, each day.

There are days that I am feeling that I'm out of balance, out of control, I feel I'm absolutely on the wrong side of me, but my soul gently and lovingly sharing with me, that I am never WRONG, there is no wrong, there is only a way of looking at things. She wants' to show from her perspective, from her eyes, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG.
As long as I judge right or wrong, good or bad I will experience those things the way I judge them to be.
If I allow my soul to be there, in the DARK times as well. I'm no longer judging, I'm just having a good time experiencing and celebrating the "dark" times.
When I stopped judging myself doing something I considered to be bad, I start enjoying my life so much more.

There is a safe feeling, a safe soft comfort space and joy underneath those experiences, I started to notice that.

But what is it this soul's love?

How can that be? is it real? to feel so much love to me from my soul?

I chose me, and with that came the love for me.
I chose me and with that I started to notice that I did not love me.
What is real love? what is real love without conditions?
It is absolute stillness, absolute stillness that makes human's cry. because there is so much love and honor and trust and compassion, that no one can stand there without noticing that, without crying.

This is what is becoming of me now, the love of me, the real me.
This is the greatest choice I ever gave to myself, it's the greatest gift I ever gave to myself, to really love me.

I would love to share with you examples of self love, just because it was so shocking for me to notice, that most of my life I accepted all what is not love, thinking this is love, thinking -well, that' the best you can have, that is something normal, that what I call life.
But since I made this commitment to me I sow so many things in my life that where absolutely not love, so for me I found it very important to start noticing how I'm treating myself, how am I treated by others, what am I allowing in my life and what I'm not.

So here I will share with you my stories, maybe just maybe it will inspire you as well, to love you even more, to be soft with you, to nurture you, to fall in love with you.


Give it to your Soul

I noticed today at some point of the day that I felt small, I felt maybe I did something wrong.
Then I noticed this is not me who is feeling that, but an aspect of me, a part of me feeling small, unworthy and shut down in feelings, but this is not who I am, so I gave it to my soul.
My soul treated that like I have never treated that before, she is treating everything around her, with so much love and admiration, with tenderness and compassion. I did not need to know what she's doing with it, but I did feel she is supporting me in this process of becoming the real me, she is asking me to give her all my aspects, all my anger, pain and anything my human mind can't comprehend.
She is giving me all her love, all what she can, to show me there is no one more important than me.
The human me does not know how to really deal with those aspects, and why should I carry their pain, or whatever they going through?
I have my life to enjoy them now, and not to be busy with my aspects from maybe life times ago, maybe from this life time... does it matter?
So I give them all to my soul, so she could take care of them, as her love is so amazing and so profound, that I know she will know what to do with them.

Will you let me love you?

It is a sweet, funny question.
will u let me love you?
Part of me does not believe it's possible to love me, it feels so horrible, so not loved, so not appreciated, how will I allow her to love me?
But I open my heart to receive so much more, I opened my heart to allow her to come one step more.
She knows I'm in trouble, she knows I was running away.

Will you let me love you? she is asking again, and in my belly I feel the voice that is scared and small, saying Yes, Please, Please love me. as I don't know anymore how to do it myself.

I breathe me again

I receive my love, I breath me again.
It' s me and my soul who loves me so much, she is gently reminds me that I am never alone.
I can play the game of being alone, I can pretend by playing the game, that I am without her.
But she is there, smiling, just waiting for me to come home, to come home.

I received my love today, when I said yes, she was there, I felt her glow in my belly, I felt her joy to play with me again.

will you let me show you the way?
Feeling the flowers

feeling the flowers, touching the butterflys with my imagination, feeling and breathing the colors around me, the butterflies shining there wings for me today, I have been gentle with me today, allowing the presents of the universe to flow in me

There is gentleness and sweetness all around me, will I allow myself to see?
Feel? the fragrance of the flowers, the wind that is blowing through my face, I am so much more willing to allow this space.
Don't forget the road is magical, don't forget the road is yours. step on it, walk in it, it will show you the way, each breath , each day.
Inspired Breath
ARTICALS
CONTACT
BUTTERFLY
Trust

What a great feeling it is when I feel trust.
I know everything will be alright, no matter what, she will hold me, no matter what she will be there for me.
I'm just in illusion when things seems wrong, I'm just in illusion when I think there is no open door.
I'm just in illusion of a very narrow vision- that there is no way to go home.
Home is within me, home is here in my belly, how can I get lost, if it's so near.
I had the feeling there was no solution, I had the feeling there is no end ...to the maze that I put myself in, the maze I created so I won't need to feel.
But I am here.
Breathe yes and, breath the solutions in,
Breathe yes and the answers in,
Breathe in self love, self trust
Don't think how and what, don't think why or when, just breathe in, breathe Trust, breathe Yes.
There is nothing else to do but breathe in the colors of you, the sounds of you, the love of you.

Breathe yes, the willingness to receive is so close, so rich, so real, when you just allow yourself to breathe it all in.

It is there, it is there for you, no matter what you do, or where you are, when you don't know where to start or how to do something that you want, say yes, and stay in trust, say yes, and I will bring you my love.



a new decision

I decided to write me down, I decided to only do what feels right for me and not for the others.
I met this part of me that was abused, I met this part of me that did not choose...to be loved.
this part want's to be loved forever, this part wants to be loved alone, no other humans besides me, just to be alone.
I decided to breathe this wounded part in, I decided it's time to go within.